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New day care

We took you to a new day care last week.

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New day care, June 16, 2015.

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First day at your new day care, June 16, 2015.

You immediately got along well with the other children and the teachers in the room.

In fact, you love just about everyone, and often walk up and hug strangers.

At a festival this past weekend, you got so excited listening to the live music that you had to walk over and hug a few women.

Yesterday in church, you were passed from person to person, as they took turns holding you and getting hugged.

I believe your soul is still so young and new and pure, that it sees the pureness in the souls of others. The goodness in your soul is attracted to the goodness in other souls.

Your happy soul shines on your face.

You are as joyful and unconditionally loving as the God who created you.

Birth certificate

Your birth certificate arrived yesterday.

It has my name on it. And your mommy’s name. And your name. You’re our little girl.

And I still shake my head in wonder.

So many years of my life were spent thinking I’d never have a child, and now here you are, sitting next to me in your highchair making talking noises and eating spinach and peppers pizza for lunch.
Mommy had nearly given up on marriage before I came along, and we both agreed that even at our age, we’d be happy if we were to have a child. (One of us believed that God’s will would determine if we had a baby. The other of us believed God was walking alongside us while uncountable and uncontrollable factors determined the outcome.)

Both of us believe you are a miracle, bathed in the Grace of God. And here you sit next to me. Our daughter. With our last name. Our miracle. Eating pizza.

A life lesson for you

Daddy learned a valuable lesson while I was interning during seminary. I worked at a retirement home where I got to know very elderly people. After talking at length with many of these folks I realized that some of them seemed to have a feeling of ‘incompleteness.’

You will, like all of us, grow up thinking that at some future point in your life you will figure out life, you will find answers to questions and will eventually, finally, understand what it means to be who you are as a unique individual. As you enter your high school years, you’ll struggle to find your identity.

Many of the older people I worked with were facing their final few years, and they were realizing that in many ways they were no closer to answers than when they started.

Our lives are about becoming who we are, not being who we are.

In the Christian Bible’s book of Exodus 3:14, it says, “God said to Moses, ‘I am who I am.’ He said further, “Thus you shall say to the Israelites, ‘I am has sent me to you.’”

In the Hebrew scripture, the Tanakh, it’s translated this way: “God said to Moses, “Ehyeh asher ehyeh (I will be what I will be),” and He said, “So shall you say to the children of Israel, ‘Ehyeh (I will be) has sent me to you.'”

English speakers tend to get trapped in the present tense, (and they tend to trap God there with them.)

But another translation is “I am becoming that which I am becoming.” Past, present, and future, all at the same time.

Like the Creator who breathed the Spirit of creation into you and me and mommy and into every living thing, we are always becoming who we are. Mommy and I are here to help you become who you will become, and to help you keep growing and keep becoming, with a sense of wonder and excitement.

And already, at less than six months old, your personality is really beginning to form and take shape. Already you are becoming who you will become.