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I just sit and stare and watch you sleep.

Dreaming of eating again.

Dreaming of eating again.

I think, “This little baby will be mine. My daughter. I’ll take you home, and you’ll be ours forever.” I still have difficulty imagining it . . . I’ve been so many years without a child, or even the possibility on the horizon, and now, here you are, right here with me.

Our visit ends tomorrow. We got in last night – we fed you and we (mommy) changed your diaper, and when we went out to dinner, I just watched you sleep next to us. Then later, we (mommy) gave you a bath and got you ready for bed.

We spent all day today feeding you and burping you, because you eat all day, and (mommy) changing your diapers. We walked you around the yard, and we mostly just sat and looked at you. We look at you while you eat, and while you just do nothing.

We watch you sleep, because you’re adorable.

Hopefully, when we come back on our next trip, we’ll be taking you home.


Feb. 13 — we see you again.

We got to see you again, today.

You’re a week old.

Your mommy and I each took turns holding you and talking to you, and looking at you for more than an hour each. Your mommy fed you for the first time, and changed your diaper.

We just sat and looked at you. Listened to you sleeping. Watched every expression that passed across your face.

a little smile

a little smile, or a little gas

I held you close, and kissed you goodbye and then I had to lay you down in your little bed. We’re looking forward to seeing you again, when we’re able to bring you home.

Just the thought of you brings tears to our eyes, because we love you so much, and look forward to being with you all the time.